Things have been…bad…recently. Not so much in that there’s been big terrible events happening (although they have, but it’s something I want to keep to myself for the moment.) In some ways things have been really good as well, which just makes everything confusing.
I always told myself I’d never do any sort of post which involved me telling the world my life sucks, at least not to the general public. It’s not the sort of thing I like to write, and it always seemed to me like some sort of emotional blackmail – I don’t want anyone reading this to feel a particular way because I told them to or gave them a story. If, by chance, some random stranger finds this LJ, I’d like them to leave their opinion, not what they think I want to hear.
Sometimes, however…it’s hard to keep it up. Sometimes you do want people to say you’re fine, you’ll be OK, or whatever.
It’s easy to look at blogging cynically. If someone express an opinion, they’re a opinionated jerk who relies on their website and their loyal fans to satisfy their ego. If someone says that life is getting them down, they’re a self obsessed loner who relies on their website and their loyal fans to give them fake sympathy to make them feel worthy. And if someone doesn’t do any of those things, they’re just writing stupid boring junk about their stupid boring life which NOBODY cares about and NOBODY wants to read about.The thing that gets me is that people seem to talk about this as if blogging is the only place to find all this on the internet. People have been doing this since the first message boards, and still do in the vast majority of online forums. There is a slight difference than expressing opinions on a forum and on a personal blog, I’ll admit, but not a vast one by any means. You can be a self-obsessed, opinionated, self-righteous, stubborn, arrogant jerk on the internet and never even think about writing a blog (because you’re too good for those, right?)
I’ve seen people like this who should really know better – gaming’s favourite attorney Jack Thompson is well known continuously spamming on GamePolitics with his “press releases”. When people suggested he’d get his own blog for this (or use one of the many many LJ accounts he had created solely to post there), the response was a rather predictable “I don’t need one, idiot gamers”. Of course he didn’t, because if he had one of those he wouldn’t be able to keep spamming GP and trying to get the attention he wanted.
I guess I’m trying to say I’m a little fed up of the cynicism on the internet. For all the good stuff you can find online, cynicism and distrust has pretty much become the norm. Admittedly there are several good reasons why, but perhaps we need to lay off it just a little bit?
If you don’t like rants, I apologise. I don’t particular like them either, but sometimes they’re necessary..